I Ask Myself Why
Preamble - This is a full on rant and you're more than welcome to back up and leave. I understand! I'm just using this blog for it's original purpose, to get it out of my head.
There is nothing like a little anger, or huge amounts of anger for that matter to spur on a killer work out. Okay, maybe not killer to some standards, but for me - killer. My arms are already telling me a thing or two! I love it.
My work out consisted of 30 min. on the elliptical with a final distance of 7.4K. WOOHOO!! Do you know how therapeutic it is to work out in the dark? Maybe not so therapeutic when there are tears screaming down your face. A girl has to do what a girl has to do though. I also lifted the following:
Standing Dumbbell Curls
W-10lbs
R - 12
S - 3
Shoulder Raises
W - 10lbs
R - 12
S - 3
Single Arm Hammer Curls
W - 10lbs
R - 12
S - 2
That was all I could think of to do off the top of my head. Limited resources and limited imagination. It was something though and in spite all the swirling head crap and personal crap, I'm glad for what I did do!
I'm so sick and tired of this emotional roller coaster of my life. One day is incredible and then another day is a nightmare. I can't take it! I'm tired of the constant struggle with what is coming next. I loved my life this morning and tonight I don't know what to think. My defences are up, my heart is shaken and my confidence in question. I'm not used to that feeling anymore. A meltdown with cursing and screaming took place and in the presence of another person's child no less! Not cool at all. I think that might be the source of 99.9% of my anger, that another person's child would have to be witness to this garbage. I can't even put to words my disgust!
Tomorrow will be a better day because it sure as hell can't get worse than the end of this one.
Sweet dreams to you and enjoy Biggest Loser. I won't be watching tonight's episode (another rant for another day - maybe).
9 comments:
Its good that you focused your anger into a workout!
But remember, its all about balance. Take a deep breath and remember that tomorrow is always another day.
I hope it gets better for you.
I'm so sorry. Let me know if you want to talk
I feel you on the work out therapy. I hate that someone ruined a perfectly good day and made me pissed off. In the past I would have went home and ate something to deal with it...but we're better than that. Congrats on your workout. I hope tomorrow is a better day! Hang in there.
((HUGS)) sweetie. Tomorrow will be better, I promise!!
Oh no honey...I Hope things calm down and everything reaches an even keel soon. {{{{Hugs}}}}
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Rant! It's good for you! That's what blogging is all about.
Great you did work out !!!
I'm like you too: somedays are great then the next is bad, sometimes I don't really know why. Sometimes I think we are just paying for the past, stuffs that stay in our mind even though we are not conscious about them ...
Hope today is a great day !!!
(((hugs))))
Workout = Awesome!
Tears not good. What the F?
Oh dear :o( We're going to have to clean this up because it's not doing you any good although you did a terrific workout :o)
I could tell you that 'shit happens' or 'that's life' but who wants to hear that? I wish you could somehow get rid of this garbage you have but then again, I'm still trying to do that myself. I can offer you a hug though :o)
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