Things That Go Bang In The Night

I'm still absolutely furious as I write this entry, 12 hours after the fact.

I was on my way home from work last night sitting at an intersection, when a car pulled up beside me.  It should have pulled up diagonal from my vehicle since I was the 4th car in my lane, and this particular car would have been the 3rd car in their lane.  

The car sat opposite my car and the occupants, got my attention, partly because that was a stupid driving move.  If I thought that was a stupid driving move, what happened next is beyond stupid.

The occupants were laughing and jeering (I could see mouths moving), and the driver pulled up a gun and shot 2 times at my car.  The gun was a play gun, but for a split second, you don't know that.  With the windows up on my car, I couldn't hear the gun go off, but heard the 2 dings off my car's passenger door.

The vehicle and it's occupants advanced when the light turned green.  I did what I could to get the licence plate, but of all nights, I didn't have my my cel phone.  Forgot it at home.  I wasn't able to properly remember the plate number.  I'm so mad at myself.  I do remember the last 5 digits "NY 709".  It was the combination of the first letters that I know I messed up.  The NY part was easy to remember because of New York, and the 709 is a commonly used pager number at work.  GRRRR on messing up the first digits.

I called the police when I got home.  I know what happened was bad, but I wasn't really thinking of how bad it was until the dispatcher told me an officer would be out to my house shortly to speak with me.  It then dawned on me, it was a crime with a gun.  A toy gun, but a gun just the same. It all just clicked with me.  I am so mad at myself that I messed up the plate number  - so mad!

It just hits me from time to time that people are bat-shit crazy!  Stupid little punks!   Seriously, they need to be taken home and their arses whooped and good!

Who would think, eh, just driving home and all this could happen.  You just never know. I've said that from time to time, but to actually feel it is just crazy.

Long Time No Communication

I have not blogged in a dog's age.  To the point of why bother anymore?

Most of my computer time is spent on a wedding board and mindless clicking game links on Facebook.  I don't  do much blog related activity at home, never have and the work computer parameters have changed so much that I can read blogs, but can't access my own blog from work.

Even as I start this, I wonder who out there is interested in what I have to say anyway, so has the blogging world really lost much when I've not been blogging?  I think the answer that best applies, would be: NO!

Never one to give up or in easily, I'm still here. My fingers continue to type.

Live, since I've last been here, has been hectic to say the least.

• Princess and the Prince have moved away. My heart breaks a little every day.  I'm getting used to it, but it's not easy.  I am very proud of her and her quest to go back to school.  I just really wish she would stay in town to do it. 
• Queenie is doing really well.  Very proud of her. 
• Wedding plans are fast and furious.  I'm enjoying myself and questioning my decisions most every day.  It's insane this wedding planning business. 
• Cuteboy and I are quickly approaching our 2nd annual winter vacation.  I can not wait to put my feet up, read a book and drink free beverages for a week.  REALLY CAN NOT WAIT
• The battle of the body is still ongoing.  I've actually hit my highest weight to date.  It is heart breaking and something I am so tired of dealing with.  I whine and cry and do nothing about making changes.  Things will remain the same if you don't make a change in your behaviour.  I tell myself that, but in the strangest way, it goes right out the other ear.  I've tried switching ears, but it seem both ears allow for important information to escape. 

Anyway, that is my life in a nutshell.  

I think I will attempt be a bit more consistent with my posts.  This is a short one, but it really does feel good to see things coming together in the form of thoughts getting out of my head.  

Until next time.... 

Wasted Time

I feel like I'm doing nothing but wasting time.

Wasting time with thoughts of wanting to work out.

Wasting time pretending to eat properly then blow it with stupid decisions.

Wasting time working to pay for a gym membership that I don't use.

Wasting time spending energy with negative self imagine and self worth thoughts.

My weight has hit another all time high. This is getting to the point of pathetic, if not already past the point of pathetic. Something has to give and I do hope it's not the button on my pants.

My plan for the month of July was to run/walk a distance of 30 miles. That is a distance of 1 mile per day. Not too hard, right? Wrong!!!! I went to the gym 3x for a total distance of 12.38 miles. That distance includes a 6 mile walk, so to say I came up short would be an understatement.

I give up!