I Did It!

I just polished off 21 minutes on the elliptical. I wasn't alone though. I had some help from some incredible friends.

Keith Urban
Nickleback
Theory of A Deadman (Tyler Connolly) - oh swoon
Anna Nalick
Sugarland
Kid Rock
And.... you!

I was belting out the tunes and on key (ya right!). It felt great. I feel great.

I said I wanted to do 20 minutes and I did 21 minutes! I will push tomorrow to do 22 minutes. That's how I roll, very much like the Jerry Lewis Telethon. $1.00 more than last year, well, I'm one more than yesterday.

Thank you for being here and giving me another chance. I will falter in being accountable to myself for the first little bit and I've failed in being accountable to you and my team. No more! I will use you as my inspiration and drive until I'm well on my way to using myself.

Ya me!

Tuesday Tunes - You Can Let Go

You Can Let Go - Crystal Shawanda

Wind blowin' on my face
Sidewalk flyin' beneath my bike
A five year-old's first taste
Of what freedom's really like
He was runnin' right beside me
His hand holdin' on the seat
I took a deep breath and hollered
As I headed for the street

Chorus

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I'm ready
To do this on my own
(It's still) (It still feels) a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I'll be okay now, Daddy
You can let go

Between the two loves of my life
To one I've been a daughter
To one I soon would be a wife
When the preacher asked,
'Who gives this woman?'
Daddy's eyes filled up with tears
He kept holdin' tightly to my arm
Til I whispered in his ear

(Repeat Chorus)

The strongest man I ever knew
Wastin' away to nothin'
In that hospital room
'You know he's only hangin' on for you'
That's what the night nurse said
My voice and heart were breakin'
As I crawled up in his bed, and said

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go now,
Daddy I can do this on my own
It's gonna be a little bit scary
But I want you to know I'll be okay now, Daddy

You can let go
You can let go

This is my current favorite song. I finally was able to hear the singer's name clear enough and catch what I figured to be the title do a google search that took me to the right place. This song is so heart-tugging. I especially struggle with it in spots because of the estrangement with my own father. Oh what to do!?

Lost - Faith Hill

Lost
Is it obvious to you
When you walk into a room
Your face is all I see
And my heart races so fast
I never knew a rush to feel like that
Every time you're touching me

I never did believe in anything
I couldn't hold between my fingers
But the way you make me feel
It's just so real the way it lingers

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
When everything I have doesn't mean a thing
If it's without you
If it's a dream, don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin'
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost (forever)
(I wanna stay lost forever with you)

No, this feeling doesn't end
It's with me everywhere I am
Hope it never goes away
It's like defying gravity
Losin' all control and bein' free
And I always wanna stay

I never thought that I'd let go
Long enough to fall for someone deeply
Who had the power to erase my fears
And find me so completely
I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
When everything I have doesn't mean a thing
If it's without you
If it's a dream, don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin'
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost (forever)
(I wanna stay lost forever with you)
Don't tell me where we're goin'
I don't wanna know
I like the mystery (I like the mystery)
I can't believe we've come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn't lookin'
You found me

Don't tell me where we're goin'
I don't wanna know
I like the mystery (I like the mystery)
I can't believe we've come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn't lookin'
You found me

And now I'm lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have doesn't mean a thing
If it's without you
Without you
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin'
How it feels without you
Yeah, if bein' lost means never knowin'
How it feels without you
Oh, if bein' lost means that I'm never
Gonna be without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever with you

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This is my new favorite song. Those close to me will know the reason for this fitting my life perfectly right now. The timing is perfect. When I was at the Faith and Tim concert in June, Faith sang this most beautiful song. I was on my way home from work last night when this song came on the radio. I was torn between the smile that kept taking over or the tiny tears rolling down my cheeks. Being a smitten kitten is one of the sweetest feelings I've ever experienced.

Stand ~ Rascal Flatts

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless, like you’ve lost your fight
But you’ll be alright, you’ll be alright

Chorus
‘Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you’re made of
You might bend ‘til you break
‘Cause it’s all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand

Life’s like a novel with the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon with only one way down
Take what you’re given before it’s gone
And start holdin’ on, keep holdin’ on

Every time you get up and get back in the race
One more small piece of you starts to fall into place – yeah

Yeah then you stand – yeah
Yeah, baby
Woo hoo, Woo hoo, Woo hoo
Then you stand – yeah, yeah

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I've been told this should be my new theme song. It is taking a stand that has me in a bit of a spot. I ask myself this question constantly: 'Was the fight worth the cost?" I'll not know for some time yet, worse than that I may never really know. Things happened how they did and life will be how it will be.

Thanks, V for thinking of me when you did with this song. Rascal Flatts is fast becoming a favorite of mine and is touching music, such as this song that does it for me!

100 Favorite Songs (almost) 100th Post

I've been informed by some people in the know that when you're posting your 100th blog entry you're to do a list of 100 whatevers.... I thought I'd be able to do this easily. No, I couldn't do it with ease, but I gave it some effort.

1. The Dance ~ Garth Brooks
2. Benny and the Jets ~ Elton John
3. Ain’t Going Down Til the Sun Comes Up ~ Garth Brooks
4. Stealing Kisses ~ Faith Hill
5. It Ain’t Over ~ Chris Daughtery
6. Eyes of an Angel ~ Hinder
7. In a New York Minute ~ Don Henley
8. Once Bitten Twice Shy ~ Great White
9. Warm Safe Place ~ Aaron Pritchett
10. Don’t ~ Shania Twain
11. Seasons In The Sun ~ Terry Jacks
12. My Boyfriend’s Back ~ The Angels
13. Jesse’s Girl ~ Rick Springfield
14. It's Still Rock and Roll To Me ~ Billy Joel
15. She Let Herself Go ~ George Strait
16. Shameless ~ Garth Brooks
17. New York State of Mind ~ Billy Joel
18. Over and Over ~ Nelly and Tim McGraw
19. Love Hurts ~ Nazareth
20. Me and My Girl ~ Theory of a Deadman
21. Comin’ Home ~ Kiss
22. Dancing Queen ~ Abba
23. One Good Friend ~ George Canyon
24. I Don’t Want You To Go ~ Carolyn Dawn Johnson
25. Imagine ~ Elton John
26. Hard Woman ~ Mick Jagger
27. Closing Time ~ Semisonic
28. Superman (It’s Not Easy) ~ Five for Fighting
29. Tu Compania ~ Keith Urban
30. Hey Jude ~ The Beatles
31. Paradise By The Dashboard Lights ~ Meatloaf
32. Wonderwall ~ Oasis
33. He Stopped Loving Her Today ~ George Jones
34. Thunderstruck ~ AC/DC
35. Right Now ~ Van Halen
36. When Love and Hate Collide ~ Def Leppard
37. Cowboy ~ Kid Rock
38. Runaround Sue ~ Dion
39. Hard Habit To Break ~ Chicago
40. Can’t Fight This Feeling ~ REO Speedwagon
41. Piano Man ~ Billy Joel
42. Don't Make Me ~ Blake Shelton
43. Wanted Dead or Alive ~ Bon Jovi
44. Problem Girl ~ Rob Thomas
45. Beth ~ Kiss
46. For Crying Out Loud ~ Meatloaf
47. Brown Sugar ~ Rolling Stones
48. The Day Before You ~ Rascal Flatts
49. Break It To Them Gently ~ Burton Cummings
50. She Didn't Have Time ~ Terri Clarke
51. Findin' A Good Man ~ Danielle Peck
52. Goodbye Time ~ Blake Shelton
53. Saturday in the Park ~ Chicago
54. My Life ~ Billy Joel
55. Four Letter Word ~ Def Leppard
56. Honeymoon In Beirut ~ Rick Springfield
57. Taking Back My Brave ~ Carolyn Dawn Johnson
58. Sweet Home Alabama ~ Lynard Skynard
59. Bright Lights ~ Matchbox 20
60. Open Arms ~ Journey
61. New Orleans is Sinking ~ The Tragically Hip
62. Against All Odds ~ Phil Collins
63. Hot Child in the City ~ Nick Gilde
64. Wind Beneath My Wings ~ Bette Midler
65. Must Be Doing Something Right ~ Billy Currington
66. My Name ~ George Canyon
67. Fast Car ~ The Wilkinson's
68. Lonely Boy ~ Andrew Gold
69. Landing in London ~ 3 Doors Down
70. Centerfold ~ J. Geils Band
71. Jukebox Hero ~ Foreigner
72. I Want You To Want Me ~ Cheap Trick
73. Figured You Out ~ Nickleback
74. Control ~ Puddle of Mudd
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Monday Music ~ She's Everything

She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She's I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear
Now and then she's moody

She's a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowing
She's a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She's a warm conversation
That I wouldn't miss for nothing
She's a fighter when she's mad
And she's a lover when she's loving

And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
'Cause she's everything to me

She's a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She's a cross around her neck
And a cuss word 'cause its Monday
She's a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She's a one glass of wine
And she's feeling kinda tipsy

She's the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers
She's a picture in my wallet
Of my unborn children's mother
She's the hand that I'm holding
When I'm on my knees and praying
She's the answer to my prayer
And she's the song that I'm playing

She's the voice I love to hear
Someday when I'm ninety
She's that wooden rocking chair
I want rocking right beside me
Everyday that passes
I only love her more
Yeah, she's the one
That I'd lay down my own life for
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Awww to be loved and appreciated in such a complete way. There are no hidden messages in my song choice today, just a song that touches my heart, which is how I live my life most of the time... by my emotions and heart. The all or nothing love depicted in the lyrics is a beautiful testament to how one can love another.

Monday Music

It has been firmly established that I love music, so I've decided to do a weekly, if not more frequent, a posting pertaing to a song I love or one that fits something I feel or with which I'm dealing.

I Don't Want You To Go ~ Carolyn Dawn Johnson
Monday mornin' is such a rush
Here it is again sneakin' up on us
Uh-huh-huh yeah
This is the part you know I don't like
We say goodbye and then we kiss goodnight
Uh-huh-huh yeah
I know it's one o'clock
And we said you'd be gone by ten
I swore that I'd get in

I know I should get some sleep
I'm at the beginnin' of another long week
But I don't want you to go
No I don't want you to go
I guess another minute wouldn't do no harm
Why not spend it in each other's arms
Cause I don't want you to go
No I don't want you to go

We always say just one more kiss
But it always seems to never end like this
Uh-huh-huh yeah
A few dozen then a couple more
Before we know it it's after four
Uh-huh-huh yeah
I know tomorrow my best friend will be my coffee cup
Cause here we go again
Watchin' the sun come up

Yeah, I know I should get some sleep
I'm at the beginnin' of another long week
But I don't want you to go
No I don't want you to go
I guess another minute wouldn't do no harm
Why not spend it in each other's arms
Cause I don't want you to go
No baby, I don't want you to go